It doesn't matter if you're slow,
as long as you don't stop
as long as you don't stop
Vexed
Monday, September 9, 2013,
Two weeks ago, I went to cycle with a boy. I thought he was strong enough to take all the stress but he is no Superman, Batman, or Spiderman. I thought he was close to everyone but I was wrong. He is stressed about next year, he pictured what is going to happen and he wants to leave.
A week ago, I went to lunch with a girl. I thought I could get her to say out the unhappiness and unpleasant things that happened around her but I was wrong again, I'm not good enough to make her talk. I have no idea when did I lost her completely. Maybe during the camp, maybe during training, maybe during dinner, maybe during normal chitchat.
Yesterday, I was asked by a man,"what is the reason and problem that makes you want to have the event?" The reason is very simple - I need everyone to work hard together to win. There is no problem but if we don't start working hard together as a team, the problem will soon surface.
Everyday, I tell myself that I cannot give up because someone hasn't given up. Who says that I don't feel like dying? Who says that he is not tired? Who says that we are not sick of what we are doing? We hang in there until now not because of the power or the points. It is because we promised to give each other support and never escape even when we are worn out and fucking drained.
NOW I DON'T UNDERSTAND! WHY THE FUCK ARE WE WORKING SO HARD FOR? WE ARE WORKING SO HARD HERE TO GIVE THE REST OF YOU A BETTER YEAR AHEAD. WHY ARE YOU GUYS TELLING ME THAT YOU ARE LOSING INTEREST!? WHY ARE YOU GUYS TELLING ME THAT YOU ARE TIRED? WHY SAY IT SO EASILY?!